"For once love penetrates the heart, it spreads to cloud the eye"

insomniac

Insomnia [in-som-nee-uh]

/ɪnˈsɒmniə/ Show Spelled Pronunciation inability to obtain sufficient sleep, esp. when chronic; difficulty in falling or staying asleep; sleeplessness.

Well,, its going on 1:00 am and I have to be up at 7:00 am.  Why is sleep so hard to obtain? I'm so exhausted but my body will not let get the rest I require. Insomnia is annoying.

Bleeding

"sometimes you just feel
everything and nothing all at once"

How can I rid myself of this awful feeling?
My brain and heart are in conflict with a parallel rhythm.
Both are racing and driving me crazy.
Yet, my brain is so screwed up and confused, wanting, needing to figure things out.
My heart on the other hand, my heart that I wear on my sleeve, is bleeding so much love, it hurts.
It's like I'm feeling everything and nothing all at once. My brain just kills everything I feel and want.
Then, my heart takes over and I can't control where I go from there...
One minute I feel whole and the next, I feel so empty that my soul aches.
Every emotion I experience impacts every second of my day.
I feel so broken yet, he makes me whole again in the same instant.
How can I rid myself of this awful feeling?

Beautifully Balanced

"Good relationships balance over time. This means that at any particular point in time, the relationship may appear quite unbalanced. One partner may be more nurturing; one may be more needy; one may be providing all the financial support, etc. But if both partners are loving, understanding, giving, dedicated and flexible, then the relationship can handle all kinds of ups and downs; and still be strong, exciting and, yes, romantic. The best relationships are well balanced. Not a delicate balance; not a static balance- but a dynamic, ever-changing balance."
- Gregory Godek

Nuclear bomb couldn't tear me down

I'm the girl in the back of the room, unnoticed.
the girl who doesn't say much surrounded by strangers,
yet is the complete opposite when with her friends and family.
I'm the girl who isn't pretty nor ugly, fat nor skinny, yet intelligent.
to most, this girl is never good enough.
always saying the wrong thing at the wrong time,
never being at the right place at the right time.
if it would save my life, i would still be late.
prince charming could come along, yet
him and a nuclear bomb couldn't tear down my barriers
that I've put up for protection after enduring so much pain.
I'm the girl who knows she is better than all this, but
still believes this deep down.
I'm the girl that he loves more than anyone he ever has,
This is the girl who he thinks is beautiful inside and out.
I'm the girl that he wants, who is more than good enough.
this prince charming somehow tore down my walls,
proved me wrong and done me right.
never failed, nothing but trust, all love and respect.
This girl feels like the luckiest girl on the face of this earth.
I'm in love. as if I've never been in love before.
and it's the scariest feeling I've ever felt.